Posts tagged ‘Emotional Eating’

I see dust…

…where once there was a wagon.

That’s how long ago and how hard I’ve fallen off my wagon. (lol) I’ve been living on that list of things in my previous post. I could say it’s because things have been stressful or my depression or “I didn’t want it all to go to waste.” And while all of those things are true to one degree or another, I fell off because I made the decision to fall throw myself from the wagon.

A large part of my problem with the diet changes I need and want to instill are the Boys. They need a diet over-haul as much as I do; not to lose weight but to simply eat healthier. However, they aren’t going to understand or like the changes. I don’t want to keep living like we run a cafeteria every meal – fixing different things for Rob and I than them. So I need to find a way to change everyone’s diet without continuing the Cafeteria Lifestyle but while taking into account the different dietary needs. And without adding more stress to my already seriously stressful life because that will just be setting myself up to fail.

I need to find a good, FREE (no money in our budget for places like Weight Watchers etc), tried and true method to plan our meals and make the changes to our diet.

If anyone happens to know one, could you please share it with me. Please! =)

My own worst enemy

I am my own worst enemy in this quest for a healthier life.

My vices are pop, chocolate, baked goods and chips. Oh, and fast food! Fast food and pop are probably tied for 1st with chocolate coming in at a very close 2nd.

I so desperately want to make this Life Style Change! I know I’m not going to like it at first but it’s what’s best for me. It might even help my pain and migraines and whatnot. But I’m setting myself up for failure!

I’m depressed. I’ve been diagnosed as clinically depressed when I was a teenager and then again as an adult. It’s something I’ve always dealt with. I’m currently on medication for it but with everything we have going on in our lives, eating is a comfort.

Okay, so I’m always depressed. This is different; it’s a drowning depression. It’s getting worse and I don’t know that my medications are working. Which amounts to me only wanting to eat. Not just meals eating. Eating all the time…

√: Breakfast

√:Lunch

√:Dinner

√:Snack

√:Night-time Snack

√:Midnight Snack

√:Finish eating what the Boys don’t eat

√:Snack while I cook for the Boys

My original goal was to officially begin the change on July 1st, which kind of stinks because my birthday is July 18th. But this is too important to put off for another month. Now, with this depression threatening to take me down, I just don’t know.

With that said, I’m going to go eat my PaPa Bear’s Pizza Oven Pizza and fried chicken with jo-jo potatoes. Yeah, that’ll help. =(