Posts from the ‘Bed Rest’ Category

The Story of Emmett John

Granted most of this blog thus far has been dedicated to the making, the baking, the raising of Mr. Emmett John along with his brothers. However, if you are new to the Cheerios’ Universe and would like a quick run down…let’s see what I can do for you.

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Hospital Stay #1 ~ August 2008 9w

Hospital Stay #2 ~ May 2009 11m

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Just an observation

Dr. D was kind enough to call in a script for the Zofran. (Thank God!) My insurance will pay for 10 pills. We aren’t sure if this is 10 pills at a time. Three days worth at a time (since it’s prescribed 3 times a day). Or if it’s 10 pills a month. I’m currently trying to figure this out. Anyway, they are dissolving tablets. Which is nice. However, in their attempt to make them not taste like asprin they made they berry flavored. Which is absolutely disgusting when you are already incredibly nauseous.

Weekend Update

Yeah so it’s Tuesday and I’m just giving the weekend update. Sue me. (Seriously, go ahead. All the “cool kids” are doing it these days. lol)

Thursday ~ L&D visit. I think I posted from my cell phone in my room.

Friday ~ L&D visit #2. Again I think I posted from my cell phone in my room. (Feel free to correct me on this and I’ll fix this part of the update.)

Saturday ~ Stayed home. Absolutely miserable. On again, off again contractions with cramps.

Sunday ~ Home again. Still miserable. Still having on again, off again contractions. Tiny was moving like mad. Whoever said they slowly down on the movements when they run out of room, didn’t know my son. Ate Wendy’s spicy chicken for dinner. (That’s the first thing I’d had to eat since Saturday at dinner.)

Monday ~ Home in the morning. Phenergan not working. Unable to keep down food or water. Probably dehydrated. Forcing down water. Trying to hold it down, failing more often than not. Went in to L&D at 1:00pm. Declared in “latent early labor“, which is a fancy term for “stuck at 2cm during early labor”. Once I get over this 2cm hump I may just fly. It’s just a matter of getting to that point. We were in L&D for 6-7 hours. My nurse was able to see a few of my “10” contractions that for whatever reason weren’t showing up on the monitor. So she was fighting to have me admitted but since I’m not changing the doctors weren’t going for it. They gave me Zofran for the nausea et al. (I’m currently waiting to hear from Dr. D’s office on whether they are willing to call in a script so I can keep hydrated blah blah blah.) Then they released me.

Now we wait. Well we wait. I try and stay sane. I woke up with horrible cramps – I think I only slept through them because the Ambien didn’t leave me much of a choice. I was feeling pretty good this morning and made the mistake of eating a doughnut and drinking some water. The contractions have decided they don’t appreciate the doughnut being in my stomach and are trying to evict it.

Lisa came at 8:00am and gave me my last 17P injection. She assured me that it will not stop what has already started. (Woo who!) I will miss her weekly visits. I will NOT miss the injections. (lol)

Rob is “nesting”. I am exhausted. I think I’ll let him nest and go try and nap.

Time is running out!

I’m not sure when but I doubt it’s going to be long before Tiny makes his grand enterance into the world. If you haven’t already, you’ll want to be sure to enter your guess into the poll we’ve got going!

You won’t find mother of the year here

I feel like I’ve been complaining, a lot; however, I am being honest. Something I hope my friends and family have come to expect from me…honesty. It’s so rarely seen anymore. Many don’t know it when it stares them right in the face. Other’s don’t care to know it at all because lying is easier.

Me? I prefer the truth. I will lie on certain things. Christmas. Birthdays. Other holidays/events where gifts or surprises are involved. But in all things big and major, I tell the truth.

I like to think that’s why some of you read the blog at all. Because of the honesty you’ll find here. Because it’s not post after post of how rosie things might be or could be or we would like them to be. We show you the honest truth. The nitty gritty of our lives, within reason. (Let’s face it, something things just aren’t meant for sharing. 😉 lol)

Rob and I spent the better part of 7-8 hours in L&D last night. When we arrived my contractions were 10 minutes apart. Then they were 7 minutes apart. Then 5 minutes. In the end, just before I was sent home, they were 3 minutes apart and kicking my butt.

Long story short, I was “violated” 6 ways from Sunday. Had one incredibly painful IV placed about 30 minutes before my release. And monitored for 7-8 hours. In the end, I had dilated to about 2 cm (an increase from the 1 cm/40% effaced I’ve been for 3-4 weeks) but that wasn’t enough. I needed to dilate more and faster for it to be “true labor”. They sent me home.

Elliott Richard was “spending the night” at Grandma and Grandpa G’s. I used that term loosely because apparently very little sleep was had.

Gavin spent the night at Grandma and Grandpa W’s. Although from what I hear, sleep was hard to come by there as well.

We got home at 2-ish am. I took a Darvocet and an Ambien to help me sleep. They finally kicked in (ie won out over the contractions) at around 4-4:30am. I slept for about 4 hours total last night. My uterus contacted away. Like the “Little Engine that Could” only without the accomplishment in the end.

We woke up. I took my morning meds. Made a quick trip to Wally World for envelopes for my cards. Came home. Laid down for a while. (Contracting 7-10 minutes apart all the while.) Grandma G and Aunt Jenny brought Elliott Richard home. Hung out with my Twitter Bug until the contractions became so bad that I was clinging to the couch for support and sobbing. Grandma G and Aunt Jenny came back. Elliott Richard was gone again.

Off to L&D we went again. So sure that “this was it”. So sure we would be seeing our Tiny soon. I contracted 3-5 minutes apart all the way to the hospital. I contracted during the entire trip from the ER to L&D. I contracted and I cried.

They wheeled me into L&D. My favorite nurse, Shawn, was on shift. She saw me. Then she saw the tears and lack of smile, which I usually always wear when I see her. (She is a truly special nurse in my book.) She caught on that we meant business and it might actually be it. It took a few moments to get my ID bands on because I was doubled over in pain. I finally flung my right arm out to the side so they could band me – pain or not. They debated moving my wheelchair because of the pain. I think I half mumbled, half grunted “it won’t matter”. So they moved me. As if I were either made of glass or going to shred their heads from their shoulders…I’m not sure which.

I climbed into bed with a lot of help from Rob. He helped me get dressed. Something that never happens due to my fierce independence streak. I think I laid my head on his chest and sobbed for a moment. I got into bed. Shawn came in. Hooked up the monitors. And as if she had flipped a switch (a very cruel and vindictive switch) it all stopped. My contractions disappeared. The few I had weren’t showing up on the monitor but were obvious upon viewing and feeling my belly. It all just came to a screeching halt.

I cried.

They checked me, again. I’m still dilated to 2cm. No change. These contractions that were bringing me to my knees sobbing in pain weren’t enough to get the job done.

I cried.

Shawn came back in. She zapped Tiny with a vibrator/buzzer thingie because he was asleep and they needed to see his heart rate with some increases and decells before they could release me. She placed it on my belly and *buzzt*. Tiny literally jumped from his spot head down with his back in the center of my belly to the left side of my belly. As far away from the violating “buzzt” as he could get. All in one moment, Shawn “buzzt” Tiny. Tiny jumped. And my entire uterus seized up in a massive contraction.

They were all happy with the outcome. We were discharged. The nurse who discharged me (not my beloved Shawn) said that the “seasoned nurses” swear by spicy food and sex. I’ve been eating spicy food. The other is a no-no while on strict bed rest, which Dr. D is adamant I continue until Tiny arrives or 37 weeks – whichever comes first.

We came home again.

Gavin is still with Grandma and Grandpa W.

Elliott was with Grandma and Grandpa G until about 2 hours ago. They were nice enough to bring him home along with Taco Bell for me (spicy food on a budget) and a sundae for Rob. Elliott fell asleep in the car. Rob carried him to bed.

I feel like a horrible mother.

I didn’t get to say “amens” (aka prayers) with Elliott Richard last night or tonight. I love to say “amens” with him. I didn’t get to tuck Gavin in or remind him that he needed to sleep and turn the TV off at 10pm last night or tonight.

When Tiny comes, if Heaven forbid he is in the NICU, I know I will camp out at the hospital. I will not leave. I will sleep in whichever room they see fit to give me. I will drag myself from bed every 3 hours to help feed him. I will pump enough milk to put most dairy cows to shame. I will ask questions. I will beg for chances to change diapers and watch baths. I will stalk my son, his nurses, his doctors and anyone else who may possibly have information on his progress and prognosis. My life Gavin and Elliott Richard, will be placed on hold. I will miss them. I will love them (no less or no more than Tiny). But I will be where I am needed most. And so the good of the two will stumble while I focus on the good of the one.

There is no doubt in my mind that Rob will at some point attempt to lure me home. Attempt to lure me back to normalcy. I can’t fathom that. I can’t fathom a sense of “normalcy” with one child fighting for life while the other two live. I can’t make that work out in my head.

In the end of July, I will be summoned to court. To defend myself against charges that have no basis within the scope of the real world. I will be drug my newborn child. Ripped away from him. I will likely be his only source for food. And yet, I will go. I will go because in the end of July, just as those few days from now, I will fight for the good of the one. While the good of the two must suffer. I will be angry. I will be hormonal. It’s likely that I will be blunt, which may or may not work to my favor. However, the fact will remain that for that day Gavin will be the good of the one. Elliott Richard and Tiny will be the good of the two placed on temp hold.

Until then, I am trying to find a way to survive. The contractions on a 10 on the lovely pain scale (that we all know I love so much) of 1-10. (1 being no pain at all and 10 being “a shark could be ripping my limbs off and I would not notice”) I’m so tired that Ambien on an empty stomach still takes 3 hours to kick-in over the pain. I’m so frustrated with my body and it’s sudden unwillingness to follow through. When I’ve been fighting it for 4 months to NOT follow through. I’m so frustrated that I struggle to see and feel the miracle that is every movement of Tiny within my belly. And this makes me feel horrible beyond words.

How many women would die to be me at this very moment? How many would love nothing more and yet will not be granted such a miracle? What right do I have to complain and be irritated with the miracle that is our unborn son, when I myself was told 3 years that he was a complete and total impossibility.

For all of these things, and many other things that simply were unable to penetrate my sleep-hazy mind, I will not be awarded “Mother of the Year”. I am sorry to disappoint. I am a mother. I am a human. I am not Super Mom. At least, I’m honest about it. That counts for something, right?

Just call me Sha’Nay’Nay

Sha’Nay’Nay is my alter ego. She’s the name I go by when I’ve had enough of my life and I want to be someone else for a while. That’s the name I answer to when I can’t stand the sound of Mom, Mommy, Mama, Lizze etc. Although no one calls me that anyway so I honestly don’t know why I bother.

I’ve been trying to formulate a blog in my head all day. Nothing sounds good. Nothing does justice to life. And I don’t want to sound like “Wendy Whiner” as my Daddy used to call me. Mostly, I just don’t really know where to start.

My stomach is killing me. I can say with complete sincerity that I have rarely had pain like this in my life. And I’ve injured myself quite a bit between 8 years of gymnastics and being a typical hyperactive kid growing up. At least with all of my various injuries, the pain peaked and then began to subside at some point. There is no peak. There is no subsiding. It’s just a plateau of intense pain at this point. My stomach/diaphragm muscle is so exhausted from the pain of it all that I can physically feel tremors in it.

You know, rarely in my life have I ever been speechless. I just love to talk. I usually have an opinion on just about everything. But now…I’ve got nothing. That’s how overwhelmed and far gone I am at this point with everything. Rob met with Pattie tonight. He’s told me what was discussed. I don’t remember it. I’m sure he’ll tell you what he can later.

I was a complete slacker today. I didn’t make any cards. I didn’t update Tiny’s pregnancy journals and calendars. I played solitaire on my phone. Watched a lot of pointless television. Napped off and on. And now I’m going to take half of my night-time medications and then I’ll take the other half later. Who knows, perhaps I’ll have something insightful to babble about once they kick in. Seems to be how it works out every other night. *sigh*

Bed Rest ~ Day 98

Honestly, I don’t know if today is day 98. I’ve lost track. Not that it matters much. The whole point is that I’ve been on strict bed rest now for over 3 months! And bed rest in general for just over 4 months. Insanity.

Tomorrow is my second to last appointment with Lisa. It’s bitter sweet because while I will definitely miss her. I will not miss the injections. (lol)

I just can’t believe that we are winding down to the end. It seems like just the other day I was “late” and shocked to find myself carrying another little miracle. (Never tell me I can’t do something because that’s a sure-fire way to guarantee it. lol)

Now of course Tiny is massive. His butt in planted in my ribs and causing pain pretty darn close to what I had with the DVT while pregnant with Elliott Richard. I would double over with the pain, except that bending at the “waist” (my waist disappeared a long time ago lol) makes the pain worse. So I just try and stretch out as much as possible to minimize the pain. It’s actually making living and functioning quite unbearable at the moment.

We still don’t have a name for Tiny. I’ve resigned myself to one of a few things taking place:

1) I will simply put “Tiny” on his birth certificate and be done with it. (Not likely but looking more appealling everyday.)
2) I will just let Rob fill out the paperwork and wash my hands of the whole thing. (Again, not likely but looking more appealling everyday.)
3) I will just open a baby name book and name him the first thing I place my finger on. (Girl or boy, I don’t care at this point.)

Rob has been trying to discuss names lately and I honestly want nothing at all to do with it. The idea of discussing names physically turns my stomach. Gavin is convinced Tiny’s name is Alex and when I explain that we don’t know what his name is I get screamed at. *sigh* I honestly hate all names at this point. Rob asked me for my top picks the other day. I don’t have any. I hate them all. None of them feels right. None of them sounds right. I’m just over-loaded on stupid baby names. I mean honestly, do I look like a chick that needs more pressure right now?! *pfth* Whatever. Forget it.

I was going to write more but the pain in my belly is getting worse. I keep expecting to look where it hurts and see a bruise there. I’m always surprised when it isn’t there. I have cards to get done. A mess to clean up from making the cards that need finished. And I have to try and maintain some sanity through this pain. (Not likely.)

98 down ~ 37 to go