I am my own worst enemy in this quest for a healthier life.

My vices are pop, chocolate, baked goods and chips. Oh, and fast food! Fast food and pop are probably tied for 1st with chocolate coming in at a very close 2nd.

I so desperately want to make this Life Style Change! I know I’m not going to like it at first but it’s what’s best for me. It might even help my pain and migraines and whatnot. But I’m setting myself up for failure!

I’m depressed. I’ve been diagnosed as clinically depressed when I was a teenager and then again as an adult. It’s something I’ve always dealt with. I’m currently on medication for it but with everything we have going on in our lives, eating is a comfort.

Okay, so I’m always depressed. This is different; it’s a drowning depression. It’s getting worse and I don’t know that my medications are working. Which amounts to me only wanting to eat. Not just meals eating. Eating all the time…

√: Breakfast

√:Lunch

√:Dinner

√:Snack

√:Night-time Snack

√:Midnight Snack

√:Finish eating what the Boys don’t eat

√:Snack while I cook for the Boys

My original goal was to officially begin the change on July 1st, which kind of stinks because my birthday is July 18th. But this is too important to put off for another month. Now, with this depression threatening to take me down, I just don’t know.

With that said, I’m going to go eat my PaPa Bear’s Pizza Oven Pizza and fried chicken with jo-jo potatoes. Yeah, that’ll help. =(

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