My morning sickness has taken over my entire day, including nights. I wake up in the middle of the night and fight the urge to vomit. I can’t eat. I can barely drink. I’m a miserable person – even I don’t want to be around me. I’ve tried Ginger Ale, ginger tea, candied ginger, saltines, Club Crackers, chocolate Teddy Grahams, regular graham crackers, ice cream, Popsicles…you name it, I’ve tried it. If someone told me that standing on my head and singing the National Anthem would make it better…I’m too that point. I would try it. Imagine my frustration when the mere scent of the Ginger Tea and candied ginger caused me to dry heave. The very thing that was supposed to be my salvation was only making things worse.

My dillema is that my friends and family have made it VERY, VERY clear that no one approves of me taking medication for the morning sickness. Everyone seems to feel that I would be doing the baby some grave injustice.

I’ve done the research. There are 2 medications commonly prescribed for MS: Phenergan (which I took while pregnant with Elliott) and Zofran (which was originally created for cancer/chemo patients). Both are safe in pregnant women. Zofran has been tested a bit more extensively in pregnant women but it’s also more expensive. My insurance company will only cover 10 pills/month unless my OB can give a good reason why I need more. And that’s after getting prior authorization to have it filled in the first place.

Honestly the only reason I haven’t called my OB yet is because I feel in some sick way that I’m letting everyone down. Like I couldn’t handle “a little morning sickness” so I’m endangering the life of my unborn child. It amazes me how strongly people seem to feel about this matter. I’ve had friends tell me that they wouldn’t judge me if I take the meds but they didn’t/wouldn’t if it were them.

I’m really struggling here. Maybe my nearest and dearest don’t realize just how much I value their opinions.

Please if you read this and I’ve had this discussion with you (probably many times and at great lengths), I hope that you will not think I am a horrible mother/person. I hope that you will not judge me. I hope that you will support me. And know that I honestly tried everything everyone told me worked for them, no matter how silly it seemed before I caved and called my OB. I am not a weak person. But I am human. I can only take so much. I have to do what I think is right and at this point I honestly see no other options.

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